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Torn between two realities.A choice that will mean life or death.But she won’t know anything… until she wakes up. College sophomore, Lila Spencer lived Friday night twice. She doesn’t know how or why, just that she did. As if she split in half and went in two different directions. Out clubbing with her friends, Heather and Nilah, the girls rock it out and party hard. WhatTorn between two realities.A choice that will mean life or death.But she won’t know anything… until she wakes up. College sophomore, Lila Spencer lived Friday night twice. She doesn’t know how or why, just that she did. As if she split in half and went in two different directions. Out clubbing with her friends, Heather and Nilah, the girls rock it out and party hard. What begins as an innocent night will lead to a deadly fight for their lives, and Lila might be their only chance for survival. In bed with her boyfriend, Jay, Lila is safe and warm as she drifts to sleep in the arms of the man she loves. Until she is sucked into a horrifying nightmare of her friends' deaths.As the sunlight warms her face on Saturday morning, the two scenarios collide. But there can be only one outcome. Will she wake up in her warm bed with Jay by her side, devastated and grieving for her friends? Or was she there to save them?The answer is just the beginning....

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bitter angel Reviews

  • Giselle
    2019-05-10 20:50

    Bitter Angel was a very mixed bag for me. The first part would easily get a 4 stars; it was intriguing and exciting, it even had my heart pounding with pure adrenaline. Unfortunately the second part left a little too much to be desired, garnering only a 2 if rated separately.Let's start at the beginning: After Lila decides to go out with her two best friends at a club, she never thought things would turn into a life or death situation involving gang rapes and abduction. What's peculiar though, is she also remembers what happens if she had stayed home with her boyfriend, and that scenario was equally terrible. Although obviously not "realistic", I found this to be very interesting. The abduction was a terrifying situation; all too real and with tons of intensity. The other reality, staying home and leaving her friends to themselves, evened this out with a sweet romantic night, but with its own consequence in the end. The action does plummet after these initial sequences, though, when Lila wakes up for her redo and the story switches gears. Mostly this next part contains exhausting inner dialogue, a lot of fidgeting, and even an instance of garbage eating.Yes. Garbage eating. *shakes head still in disbelief* So Lila is spying on this guy, right, hiding out in a back alley, when hunger hits. It has been SO long - like, 8 hours!! - since she last ate that she can not fathom going another minute in hunger, so she jumps into the dumpster and searches through trash bags until she finds Chinese food… and eats it! I think my barf just barfed!"It's smelly, but what leftover Chinese isn't? I decide it's fresh enough."Eeeh yeah no shit it's smelly! Even if it was only a day old (which I very much doubt seeing as even the buildings on this street are rotting), it was likely amongst used condoms and dirty diapers. No one normal would resort to this unless they were seriously starving to death and trapped. Not someone who ate lunch the very same day! On the plus side, it has brought on random giggling fits for the past 2 days whenever I'm reminded of it. Though I doubt this was the intended reaction. Even ignoring the hobo habits, Lila doesn't have the most common sense in all of this ordeal, diminishing the tension of the story greatly. It's hard to be scared for someone who puts themselves in their own messes. It comes to no surprise that I'm not this girl's biggest fan, however I can't say I disliked her either. She does prove her strength and determination more than once which redeems her faults a little. Like I said: a mixed bag!The plot itself veers away from the expected traumatic side of this story line and instead focuses on bringing justice down on sickening evil. I was both intrigued and, I admit, a little disappointed by this - I do thrive on those traumatic psychological thrillers - but it was still a refreshing change of direction for a story that could easily have been another same ol'. I was horrified yet completely immersed when we learn of what these people have been doing on a regular basis. Most of the horror takes place at the beginning of this book, but we get a great climactic ending that brings back a little of the excitement I was hoping would keep throughout. While I have obvious complaints about this novel, I can't ignore the fact that I was holding my breath during the first part, drowning in Lila's fear and truly feeling her heart breaking in guilt and grief. Megan clearly excels at writing suspense and I will be watching for more from her!--An advance copy was provided by the publisher for review.For more of my reviews, visit my blog at Xpresso Reads

  • Megan
    2019-05-12 18:10

    I loved writing this story. It surprised me, made me cringe, and broke my heart. I hope everyone loves Lila's story as much as I do! :)

  • Kellie Maddox-Ward
    2019-05-04 00:52

    What a random concept for a book… But a fucking brilliant one! Loved it! I do need to point out right now that while this is in the genre of Contemporary Romance. There is hardly any romance in it. Yes Jay and Lila are madly in love, and you don't doubt that for a second but that takes a back seat with this book. It focus's on the intense 2 "reality's" of the night. Lila has been best friends with Heather and Nilah her whole life. It’s always been those 3. Jay is Lila’s high school sweetheart but goes to a different College to them; they are madly in love and can’t get enough of each other. Jay is coming to see Lila for the Friday night and then they are all going home for Nilah’s birthday for the weekend. Nilah and Heather spring it on Lila that they want to go out for Nilah’s birthday on Friday night. Hence we get the story of 2 Friday nights…. One where she stays home with Jay And the other Where she goes out with the girls leaving Jay at home. Upon waking up screaming… Lila realise it was all a dream… Like Groundhog day, she has just woken up and it is Friday morning… But for whatever reason she has seen how the night will go. She can’t let this Friday happen. She needs to stop the girls from going out. She needs to… She needs to change the outcome of the Friday night. THOUGHTS Megan Hand’s debut novel blew me away. I didn’t really get what the book was about when I read the synopsis, but was intrigued enough to try it. Please do! I’m not going to give anything away, so I apologise for the vagueness of it all.I do need to sat that... hmm.. Shit gets real! and scary! but still awesome! Super intense, so much so that I had to read it one sitting and find out what happened!

  • JamieZishka
    2019-05-14 00:06

    Ok it's hard for me to only give this book a 5 star!! I would give it 10 if I could!! This book god it brought so many emotions to me... Like I have told Megan while reading this book I imagined the whole time that I could totally be watching a movie that's how well it played out in my head... She is simply freakishly brilliant!! You must read this book when it comes out!!!! No not just must u will be missing out on one of the best stories I have read all year and I read about 5 books a week so that should tell ya something! My review isn't going to tell u about this book sorry I believe u need to read it urself because I don't do spoilers!! Thanks again Michaelangelo!! It's been a great ride!! Love Donatello!

  • Erica Alyson
    2019-05-14 23:49

    Wow this book was really interesting. When I first saw the description I knew I had to read it and I am soooo glad I did. The cover is gorgeous. The story is action packed and mysterious! I was really into it. It was a mystery from the start to finish and I couldn't wait to see how it would come out. I kept guessing and I was never right which makes for a great book!

  • Bridger Bitches
    2019-04-20 00:08

    WARNING: May cause rapid heart beat, Kindle throwing, foul language and over all ignoring EVERYTHING around you because you cant put the book down and MUST find out what happens next. WOW now that my heart rate is getting back to normal I feel I can give Bitter Angel the review it deserves! I was blown away by Megan Hand's debut novel. It had me on the edge of my seat the entire time. The concept was BRILLIANT and so different, I have not read anything like it. Lila was such a strong women torn between her two best friends, Nilah and Heather, whom she would do anything for ( I can relate, I would do anything for the two other bitches on this blog) and the love of her life Jay that she can;t imagine living without. ( I do LOVE my husband to death and feel her pain). Can she save herself AND her friends you will just have to read it to find out.... I don't want to give away any spoilers here so I'm trying to be vague because it so worth hopping into the roller coaster ride called Bitter Angel. Do yourself a favor and click on the link below and read ASAP. You will thank me. Megan Hand I look forward to reading anything and everything you write, for a debut novel you really hit it out of the ball park!!Much <3 Sophie

  • Sheris Alvies
    2019-05-07 17:58

    Holy hell this concept was freaking awesome!! I literally could not put this book down. It grabbed me from the first chapter and held on tight! Chapters six and seven had my heart in my throat the entire time. I will definitely be recommending this book! Megan, I eagerly look forward to your future writings and am begging to be a beta!!!

  • Jennifer Benson
    2019-04-30 18:09

    Had the honor of Beta reading Bitter Angel (3/8-3/10) and it was filled with tension, panic and intrigue. Just as I took a breath and felt relaxed it swept me up again.

  • Jessica
    2019-04-26 23:08

    Intense and pulse-pounding at times, completely heart-breaking at others.Review to come.

  • Jenni Arndt
    2019-05-08 23:47

    This book and me definitely had out ups and downs. It started off with and bang and was really interesting. I liked how we got to live the same night in two parallel ways and I liked how those two nights essentially wove together in a really good way. After we were initiated into the story and the actual plot got rolling I found that I had to stretch my imagination a bit and power through some definite lulls as I went.Lila lives this particular Friday night twice. In one scenario she goes out clubbing with her friends and ends up getting abducted by a group of college guys who want to use them as play things. In the other she stays home with her boyfriend and has to deal with the things from the first scenario happening to her two best friends who still decided to go. I had expected that Lila would wake up and see how the night could play out and have to make the decision of what she was going to do and attempt to change the outcomes either way but instead I got more of a vigilante justice story as she heads off and attempts to cut everything off before it happens. This is where I had to stretch my imagination a bit and for the most part I could but there were numerous instances where I was definitely rolling my eyes. The most interesting was when she was on a stake out and had gone what could have been maybe 24-36 hours without eating and proceeds to hop into a garbage can and go through the bags until she finds some ok looking Chinese and then eats it. That was pretty darn far fetched to me, no matter the situation.As for the characters I have to say that, for the most part, I liked Lila. She was incredibly head strong and determined (and she also proved to be pretty resourceful I guess: See above.) Her inner dialogue did grate on me a bit. She was constantly thinking about how her friends needed to stay in the dorm and her intense love for cuddling with her boyfriend Jay and it did detach me from the story and jar me out of scenes quite a bit. I also came to really like Jay. In the beginning I was annoyed at how perfect he was, he seemed to be the perfect looking, perfect acting guy but as the story wore on we saw that he did make some bad decisions and have his share of flaws. The relationship between Lila and her two friends Nilah and Heather was what really stood out to me. I loved how these girls had grown up together and felt that we really got a sense of how close they were, everyone needs some sisters to put before their misters. While this wasn’t a perfect novel I was sucked into the story and had a good time watching everything unfold. I enjoyed some of the characterizations but did struggle going along with some of the plot points. I think the story could have been much stronger had Lila went about the evening one way or the other and tried to stop stuff while it was happening but taking it at face value it was still a good ride.A copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.--You can read all of my reviews at Alluring Reads.

  • Miranda Whore
    2019-04-23 19:59

    Review of Bitter Angel by Megan HandThis book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.I hate to even label this book with a star rating because that somehow seems to be too small of praise, but since all the pages ask for stars I will give it a 5 out of 5. I would like it noted that it is beyond a 5 star story, Megan Hand has created something totally unique within this book that is captivating. I am an avid reader as you all know, but few books get inside me in a way that I feel like I am living the events as they unfold; Bitter Angel is one of those few. The writing style is amazingly smooth and the editing is as flawless as I have ever seen from an Indie author. Hand has an knack for writing witty characters who are each wholly their own personalities. I don’t know why, but a lot of writers tend to have the same flavor to each character in a story, almost like Stepford-wives kind of feel to them. Hand has completely broken the Stepford mold. Lila is witty, snarky, and laugh out loud hilarious. Jay, oh Jay, he is boy next door meets hot guy meets the one we all want to marry; in other words the PERFECT man. Did I mention he plays guitar AND sings? (total swoonfest ladies!) Then we get the bffs; Nilah and Heather they are Lila’s right and left hand ladies. They are without a doubt the type of friends who would end up laughing their asses off in the jail cell next to you after pulling some crazy scheme instead of bailing your ass out after you’ve gone and done something foolish. Actually, they were probably the ones that got you into the foolishness to begin with, but we won’t mince words. Obviously, there are bad guys, I don’t want any spoilers, but when I say bad… I mean BAD. The mystery and thrills are a mile a minute in this book. There was never a moment I was bored thinking ‘lets get on with it’ in fact I found myself trying to cheat and look ahead to see what on Earth was going to happen next! And just when I swore I had it figured out and I just KNEW how it was going to go BAM! Hand comes out of left field and knocks me on my ass. It has been a long time since I have read such an action packed story that had substance. Friendship, love, mystery, thrills and chills, even a smidge of the paranormal Bitter Angel has it all. Megan Hand has proven to be an author to watch. With lines like “Hindsight is just a torturous game of fuck you.” there is no way she can do anything but succeed.Reviewed by Mommy's a Book (W)hore.

  • Tee loves Kyle Jacobson
    2019-04-20 22:55

    Can I just say WOW OMG total mind F&*^ of a book! I have never ever read anything like this book. First off it dealt with a heavy issue that I will not give away because it is the crux of the story and the incident that happens is tragic but at the same time you find the characters reacting very differently to it. Lila Spencer will live Friday night twice. One will good and one will be bad but the thing is you don't know which one is reality and you don't know which one is not. This story takes you on a journey unlike no other and I don't want to give anything away because I loved this book that much that you have to read it to believe it. It is such a mind F&^% that as things are unraveled you are like what the hell? Did I miss something? Where did that come from? Why is she thinking like that?Lila will be over protective one minute and then kind of lost in another. I have to say that Megan did a superb job of putting this thriller together. Lord you go from one night occurrence to another and you are not sure which one is really going on but you know they are some how connected. Was she clubbing with her friends or was she at home with her loving boy friend? You have to read the book to find out because what you will read is nothing short of BRILLIANT in my eyes!

  • Lisa Harley
    2019-04-30 00:06

    Loved this story...really intriguing premise that kept me wanting to know more. Full review to come 4-1-13.

  • Z. Elizabeth
    2019-05-03 23:49

    College sophomore Lila Spencer has lived Friday night twice. One where she is out celebrating her friend’s birthday downtown and another where doesn’t go out and stays in with her boyfriend Jay.She doesn’t know how but it’s like she was split in half.Out clubbing with her friends, what starts off as an innocent night ends up with the girls lives in danger and it’s down to Lila to try and save them all.In bed with her boyfriend Jay, Lila is save in his arms but once asleep she is sucked into a nightmare about her friend’s death.Completely freaked out about the two dreams when she wakes up, which scenario will be true? Will she be grieving for her friends while she’s tucked up with Jay? Or did she save them?The emotions I felt through this book… I can’t even put words to it. If you are looking for a fluffy romance novel, then this is NOT the book you should read. If you follow me on Twitter, you would see just how affected I was reading this book (It was a few weeks ago now though). It pulled at my heart strings, it made me feel sick to the stomach but I couldn’t stop reading it. I had to know just what in the hell was going to happen.As a debut novel, Megan Hand has written such a fantastic story. Not only is it powerful, but what happens in the book really does go on everywhere. (I’m not going to tell you what it is, as it’s a major spoiler) Just trust me when I tell you that this is a book you definitely have to read. I know I say this for every book I read but this one is completely out of my comfort zone. I had no idea it would be that far out of my zone when I started it, but I am really glad that I did. Although it’s part of the tour, it was on my TBR list before I signed up.I wasn’t even that far into the book when I had to stop at a certain chapter. It got too much and my stomach was in knots over what I was reading. As I’ve said, it’s not the usual book i tend to read (Even thought I thought it would be angsty then HEA – my love) and it horrified me to know that this actually does happen out there. (I know I’m talking in riddles, but I don’t want to spoil it for you) and that there are some messed up people out there. I felt sick reading her ‘dream’ and was hoping and praying that Lila would get away and save her friends.I was crying my eyes out with sadness over the pain of the situation, knotted up whether anyone would help her get away. Oh, I can’t tell you how scared I was reading it. It was too much for me but I powered through. This all happened within the first 25% so you can imagine what I was like for the rest of the book!Lila, the heroine, is a strong character. She’s gobby and stubborn and sarcastic but she loves with everything. She loves her friends and her boyfriend Jay and would do anything for them – anything to keep them save and out of danger. Her dreams really mess with her head and you can see just how scared she is that both scenarios seemed to ‘happen’ and felt so real to her. Once Lila has a thought in her head, she can’t let it go, she has to go through with it and that’s what she does. I did admire her. She was putting her life at risk to save her friends and other people in the long haul and at times I was shouting at her to stop being so stupid and to wait for Jay to come back, but as I;ve said, when Lilah has an idea, she didn’t back down and it got her into danger more than she’d like to be in.I really liked Jay.I am a sucker for romance and even though this book isn’t filled with hearts and flowers, Jay is a sweetheart. You could see that Lila is his everything. That he loves her with everything he has and just wants to be with her. He hates living so far away from her for university and it kills him. Lila is his ONE. You really feel for him when Lila is frightened out of her mind and its scares the hell out of him not knowing what is wrong. I loved that when he heard her dream and her plan to stop it, he stuck by her, even though he was cautious about it, and went with her to help her out. Although he got angry at her, he understood her reason for doing what she had to do but he didn’t like it. You will see Jay love Lila, help her out, do the best he can to protect her and even save her. Everything he did for her during the book was down to his overpowering love he has for her. I understood everything he did was for her safety but in the end, he gets Lila forever. And that’s all he really wants.I can’t really tell you how much more that this book touched me. It was powerful, it was haunting, it had me crying my eyes out, but it also had me smiling at the love the characters had for one another. How close they are, how much they were there for one another. This isn’t like a normal review from me, because I don’t want to spoil the plot. I WANT YOU to read it yourself, and hopefully understand why I didn’t spoil it for you. If you’re an avid follower, you know I read angsty books with a HEA. This book is so much more, and as I’ve said, well out of my comfort zone, but I will definitely be re-reading it. It had that much of an impact on me.Megan Hart, I love you and Bitter Angel. This is one hell of a great debut and I hope everyone wil give this book a chance. It should be read by everyone and it is definitely on my FAVOURITE list

  • Heather
    2019-05-01 20:51

    (This review can be found on my blog The (Mis)Adventures of a Twenty-Something Year Old Girl.This was one of those books that I thought was going to be better than it was. Don't get me wrong; it's not bad by any means. It's just an okay read.Lila, a college sophomore, has two dreams. In one, she went out clubbing for her friend's birthday, and the girls were drugged and taken to a remote location to be raped. This dream lead to a vision where both of her best friends were dead. In the other, she stayed with her boyfriend and all was hunky dory. Which dream was the right one?I admit that the title of this book is what drew me in. I liked it. Did I think it had anything to do with the book? No, not really. Lila refers to herself as the bitter angel about twice in the book. This is never really explained why she calls herself that. I never really found her bitter, and I have no idea what an angel has to do with anything. Maybe it's just me being dumb.The cover of this book is interesting. I don't really know if I like it or not simply because I can't figure out what's going on with her lips on the bottom part of the cover. I've stared at this cover long and hard and still can't figure it out. I'm still perplexed!The world building was alright except for how Lila and her boyfriend decide to act on a nightmare Lila had. I could understand Jay's, Lila's boyfriend, reluctance, but I've never known anyone to do what Lila did based on a nightmare. I also didn't get how Lila woke up with Trigger's t-shirt if she just dreamt about what was happening. That part really left me stumped. Other than that, I had no problem setting up the world in my mind. In fact, Lila's world was even a little bit scary!For the majority of the book, I found the pacing to be a little bit too slow for my liking. I felt that some of what was in the book wasn't really necessary such as Lila's mental letter for Jay. For that bit, I just skipped the whole thing. The pacing was good for the very beginning of the book and the last twenty-five percent.I admired the way Lila wanted to protect her friends no matter what, and I liked the way she kicked butt. I just wish we had more of a glimpse into her background. I think a back story would've helped out a lot. I liked Jay, but I didn't love him if that makes sense. I liked the way he was good to Lila, but there wasn't anything special about him. As for Lila's two best friends, Heather and Nilah, I wish they were featured more in the book instead of just the beginning. I thought Trigger was a cool character. Maybe I just have a thing for nerds, haha. I felt that he really grew as a character in this book. I thought Alpha was a great baddie. I really, really hated him!! The author did a good job on him! I wish that it was explained better why Alpha did what he did.The dialogue was okay. Sometimes it felt a bit forced especially between Jay and Lila. Lila's internal dialogue is what had me laughing. I loved how sarcastic she was and how she always had a fighting spirit and would coach herself. There is some swearing and scenes of violence though if you're not into that sort of thing.Overall, Bitter Angel by Megan Hand is an okay read albeit a bit slow. The last twenty-five percent of the book is what really saved it for me. I was expecting a book where there's a lesson to be learned, not one where the main character decides to act on some random nightmare she has. The synopsis is a bit misleading I think. I did enjoy the ending between Alpha and Lila though, and as I've said before, I loved Lila's sarcasm. I also enjoyed reading the author's acknowledgements as well!I'd recommend this book to those aged 16+ due to violence and language.I'd give Bitter Angel by Megan Hand a 3.5 out of 5.(I was provided with a free ebook of this title from the tour host in exchange for a fair and honest review).

  • Rachael
    2019-05-13 22:52

    Rating Clarification: 3.5 / 5See more of my reviews @ Moosubi Reviews!If you take a look at my past WoWs, you might notice that a good number of books featured involve parallel worlds or different dimensions. So as one might imagine, when BITTER ANGEL, I was pretty excited to read and review the book! Well, I’m happy to say that the book was pretty enjoyable overall, though I still had some issues with some parts of the book. As expected, my favorite part of the book was actually the beginning. Basically, Lila lives the same night twice - once with her friends, celebrating, and once with her boyfriend Jay. However, her night with her friends definitely doesn’t go exactly as planned, and Lila barely escapes with her life. As I mentioned before, I’m usually really attracted to novels that feature parallel worlds, and I think Megan Hand was able to portray this really well. On top of that, Lila’s adventure was also exciting and full of suspense, as you see her clinging on and trying to survive. You can’t help but hope for the best for her while rooting her on! After that, though, was where I started seeing issues. First of all, I found it hard to believe Lila could immediately jump back and try to “save the day” after she suffered such a traumatic event, especially one that involved a gang rape of sorts. From what I know, most people are unable to even recover after such a short time, let alone try to save potential future victims. Throughout the story, I also felt like lots of her decisions were reckless or not well thought through. For example, at one point Lila decides to follow a guy in a taxi, though she knows she doesn’t have enough cash on her. And of course after she finally gets to where she needs to, she doesn’t pay the taxi driver properly and runs off. There’s even a dumpster diving scene, which I found pretty ridiculous, considering that this story happened in a span of a day. But again, I did admire Lila’s bravery. Though reckless, Lila is really determined and refuses to let any of her comrades get hurt. In that light, she shines as a great heroine, doing things that ordinary people wouldn’t dare to do. At times, I even found her strength a bit too strong, as you see her withstand so many things. Even then during the story, I still couldn’t help but root her on! I feel like I should also mention Jay, Lila's love interest. As a whole, I really liked his character - he was always loyal and loving towards Lila and wasn't afraid to take action in order to save her. He wasn't a perfect character either, as you see his internal conflict to let Lila stay independent or protect her in his own way, and his struggle to restrain a more violent side that even Jay might fear. But at the same time, I also felt that his character wasn't as developed as I wanted his to be. Specifically, though we had a general idea about his history and personality, we never really get to know the gritty details or specifics, instead focusing on Lila's goal of battling injustices. Nonetheless, I did end up liking his character.BITTER ANGEL, though frustrating and questionable at some points, was still overall an engaging read, as I couldn't help but be completely immersed in the sense of mystery and suspense in the novel! I'd say that if you're looking for a quick and exciting mystery and seem to like Lila, this is definitely the book for you. If you're a fan of New Adult contemporary, this might also be a good read if you're looking for something different, though still featuring New Adult elements.* A copy of the book was provided for the blog tour. This did not affect my opinion of the book.

  • Amy Fournier
    2019-05-07 22:47

    *Actual rating 3.5 on my blog.I feel like there have been a lot of parallel universe, or alternate reality books lately, but they still intrigue me. This one actually didn't have a whole lot of it, but it was enough to make an insane storyline that kept me wanting to know what would happen. This was quite an intense read too. There are a lot of crazy things that go on and situations that might be hard for some people to read. It has a lot of violence so if you aren't big on that you might not like this as much. To me it was like a fantastic thriller.Lila seems like a normal college girl. She's lucky enough that her two BFF's are her roomies, and she has a boyfriend who loves her more than anything. She is a super loyal friend, but I have to say that she makes some really, really dumb decisions. I know that it comes from a good place, but sometimes I really just wanted to smack her and tell her she was being stupid. She really cares about her friends more than life though, literally. She is willing to do whatever it takes to make sure they are safe, even if it means risking her own life to do it. But beyond that, she really just has this need to do what she thinks is right. She is stubborn, and brave. I really liked her despite her bad judgement at times.Jay her boyfriend is kind of a pushover, but he doesn't want to be. He just loves her so much that he will pretty much just give in to anything she says. That is until she is at risk of being harmed. OMG one of the things he does, which he does because he cares, pisses me off like you wouldn't believe. I get it. I totally do, but I can't blame Lila for how livid she is about it! He really, genuinely is just a great guy though. I can't say that he had me swooning, but I liked him because I could almost feel the love he has for Lila.The rest of the characters were interesting too. Quite a dynamic group really. Then the bad guys, seriously creeped me out. I mean they are crazy, for real!! Face me with a psychotic person and I will be more terrified than some paranormal or mythical being. It is just more real and you know that there are people like that out there!So the story I thought was good, but some of it a bit far fetched. I get that it's fictional so I tend to let things slide, but it's also realistic fiction besides the odd living the same night twice thing. That's the only thing in it that seems to hint at paranormal at all. I liked how it kind of switched back and forth between both times she lived Friday night, then the story continues with her trying to figure out what happened. So technically she lives Friday three times, but the third day she tries to fix what went wrong. Then that's it. After all the crazy ventures she doesn't keep repeating the night. I think that maybe she was meant to change things and then she did and everything is all good now sort of.In general I thought this was a great book. Yes, there were little things here and there that bothered me, but it was full of action and suspense. I loved the thrill of reading it and hoping that Lila and Jay could basically save the day! It was fast paced since it all really occurs in one day (or three really I guess). I thought that the concept was great and I liked the characters. If you are looking for a great thriller with a slight paranormal aspect to it, this is a book you should pick up.*A copy of this book was provided by the author for an honest review. I did not receive any compensation.

  • Kim
    2019-04-21 20:10

    4.5 starsI am not sure where to even start this review. The synopsis was different and intriguing. But for some reason I put off reading it because it was not my typical romance type of book. But I picked it up today and was soon sucked in. Holy Moly! This book is unique, brilliant, terrifying, confusing, emotional, raw, and riveting. There is a romantic relationship with her boyfriend, Jay that is integral to the story, but it is not a romance book. It is more of a suspense thriller with a slight paranormal twist.I'm not crazy, I swear. It happened. I don't know how, but it did. I lived the same night twice--and not like that Groundhog Day movie, but like that Sliding Doors movie. I did two completely separate things in one night, like two halves of me split off in different directions...Like a choose-your-own-adventure book, I somehow know that I only lived one of them. I'm not sure which one. Lila wants to spend the evening with her boyfriend Jay, but her long time best friends Nilah and Heather are demanding she go out clubbing with them. At this point the story fractures into two separate realities: one as if she stayed home and the other as if she went out. Her and her friends end up in a terrifying situation that has you anxious and squirming. But then she wakes up... What really happened? Was it a dream? A premonition? But what about....???And from there the story takes even more twists and turns. There is suspense, danger, panic, fear, and really bad situations. It is a pulse pounding race to find answers and keep everyone safe. I am not going to give any spoilers because trying to figure out what is going to happen next is the best part of this book. I kept flipping pages and resisting the urge to sneak to the end to see the resolution. Lila is strong and brave in some areas and insecure in others. Unfortunately, she can also be impulsive and single minded in her need to protect others. I loved her relationship with Jay. He was the perfect swoon worthy boyfriend who wants nothing but to secure her safety and happiness.I never wanted this. I didn't ask for it. I'm no hero, no martyr. I'm just a girl who tried to do the right thing, who was supposed to do the right thing and couldn't. I'm a human tragedy that'll die only to become a bitter angel, whether that's soon or someday far from today. No bell will ring for me. I'll never get my wings. If I live through tonight, I'll be messed up for the rest of my living life, so I guess it's neither here nor there. I literally felt like I was right there with them during this story and struggling to make sense of it all and figure out what to do about it. It had me on the edge of my seat, clutching my kindle, scratching my head, rethinking reality, and hoping for a good outcome. If you want to read something that is creative and unique and will make you think, then I recommend you pick this one up. Thanks to Megan Hand for providing me with a review copy in exchange for an honest review. Will be Posted at Reviews by Tammy and Kim.

  • Lelia Taylor
    2019-05-04 23:04

    I’ve dithered over writing this review because, to be quite honest, I have had a difficult time defining my feelings about it and I needed time to let those feelings percolate, so to speak. Essentially, this reviewer’s reaction and Bitter Angel both have a bit of a split personality.I love the idea of parallel existence and Ms. Hand’s concept of having Lila “live” two sides of a horrendous event is really appealing. The plot itself, revolving around behavior that really does happen, is very well done and the author clearly has a talent for creating almost unbearable tension and suspense. It’s plain almost from the beginning of the girls’ outing what is going to happen and I barely suppressed the urge to yell at them to stop what they were doing, pay attention, get smart and run like hell—very much like those movies where you can’t believe the girl is going into the dark basement and you just want to scream, “No! Don’t do it!”.Unfortunately, I found the character development to be rather uneven in several ways. The triumvirate is appealing on its surface but, the truth is, I didn’t care much about Heather and Nilah. I cared what might happen to them but the girls themselves were not appealing to me and I thought they were too shallowly drawn. I came very close to heartily disliking Nilah just because she is so very narcissistic and I also thought both these girls were really inconsiderate for demanding that Lila immediately give up her plans when they could clearly have discussed it long in advance.I did like Jay other than his being a bit of a pushover and was glad to see him “man up” when he needed to. He’s a young man any parent would be happy to see with their daughter. As for the bad guys, I felt they were the most well-drawn in their despicableness and, while I certainly didn’t have any empathy for them (with one exception), they were the most real to me.Then there’s Lila. Hmm. This girl just yanked me left and right and I’m still not sure what I think. First, she accepts with far too much ease that her parallel experience is real when 99% of us would think it was all one hell of a bad dream. Then she apparently turns into Superwoman and, from that point on, reality takes a hike. I like a strong female character but I just found it hard to believe that she would charge right in the way she does and some of her behavior is downright stupid.Having said all that, Ms. Hand has created a story about an all too real crime that does happen and I think some of the behavior she attributes to certain characters has a point, that whether it’s a feminist ideal or not, girls DO need to take more care and that perhaps having a designated driver can also serve the purpose of one person being alert enough to spot trouble. In the end, while I had some difficulties with Bitter Angel, I still enjoyed it and will look for more from Megan Hand.Reviewed by Lelia Taylor, May 2013.

  • June Luu
    2019-05-14 01:00

    Review originally posted on The Page Turners BLOG STOPOH MY GAD CHRISTO! What do I think of this book? What can I think about this book?This book was AWE-AMA-EPIC! I could not put it down! I mean, what was I thinking leaving this behind for so long?? Megan did an amazing job writing such a realistic book. Normally, books don't include such a deep real-life situations, but with Bitter Angel, it was just like I was living in it. We get to meet Lila, she's just a normal girl living her uni life with her two best friends. I love Lila, I love how she was just so normal like me and everybody. And I love her relationship with her boyfriend. At first, when I read the blurb, I found it was quite interesting, but it wasn't really it for me. But I still took a risk and added it to my TBR shelf. But now that I finally got to reading it...I feel like slapping myself for being so stupid. I love Megan's writing. The way her words made the book so alive. I felt like I was one of the characters in there, watching, listening, running, and fighting with Lila.In her world, we get sucked into two lives. In this scenario, as her life split into two, one part of her goes clubbing with her two best friends. The other half stayed at home with her boyfriend. At first, I was like 'ooh, how is this going to work out?', but then I got pulled into both lives so deep that I couldn't pull myself out of it.The part that went clubbing with her two best friends, she gets into a situation where it's a risk between life and death. Lila and her friends get abducted and is about to be used for rape. But in the other life that stayed at home with her boyfriend, Lila had a nightmare about her best friends funeral (I know, intense right?). I was sucked in from then and all the way, I was like 'OMG what was going to happen?'The way Megan drew me in with the emotions she built in this book was just...EPIC! I could feel the happiness that Lila felt when she was with her boyfriend, the fear that went through her mind as she fought for dear life. I mean, I even shivered under her words!! I love how the bond between the characters was so strong that it seared into my mind as I kept reading. Whether it was love, hate, jealousy, or betrayal. I could just feel the bond that connected these characters together. Megan's words just gave me shivers all the way, it made me beg for more, it made me think about what was Lila going to do next, or what was going to happen. There were so much action going on in my mind as I pictured Lila's world in my head.I could practically see this as a movie. I nearly cried!! I won't tell you why because I don't want to give out spoilers, you just have to read this book! I'm telling you, you will NOT regret buying this book! AMAZING! I really can't wait to read what Megan has in store next!!

  • Roses Book Blog
    2019-04-20 20:05

    As I sit here writing this review I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything that happened in this book and I finished this book 24 hours ago. I still can't get over what happened in this story it was fast-paced and exciting. As a reader and blogger I am always looking for an author that likes to think outside of the box, outside of the standard romance novel. I enjoy my romance novel as much as the next person but sometimes I like to read something non-conventional and Megan Hand has hit this one out of the park what surprises me most? That this is a brand new author and if all her books are like this one I will be reading Megan's books for a long time to come.This story is about a girl named Lila Spencer. Lila is a happy girl; she has her two best friends Nilah and Heather by her side in college and a wonderful boyfriend named Jay who comes to visit her for the weekend. Every birthday they have a tradition to let lose and party the night away but this weekend Lila must choose between going out with her friends or staying with her boyfriend Jay. Jay tells her that it's fine to go out with her friends so she leaves with them to go to a neighboring city an hour and a half away but what was suppose to be an innocent night of fun with her girls becomes so much more deadly for these three friends as they meet three guys and are quickly taken. When I say taken I'm not saying picked up in a car to party and drink some more I'm talking taken like the movie Taken and so ensues the struggle for survival fighting against what these men have done to her and her friends. At the same time Lila is also in her dorm safe with her boyfriend Jay. Safe in his arms where she belongs while struggling with the idea of moving forward with her relationship with Jay. Something is holding her back, but she can't figure out what that thing is.At this point I was like say what now? I knew the description behind this book but the way it was written really was like she was living her Friday night two different times like she was split right down the middle and half or her went one way, the other half went another. I just couldn't stop reading because it was like on one end she's safe and happy and the other she's fighting for her life. But then when she wakes up it's like her worlds collide into one especially since the dreams feel so real and there's evidence from her having lived that Friday night for real even though it appears to only have been in her head.So now you will join Lila as she discovers the truth about her dream. Was it reality? Was it her imagination? Join her as she struggles to discover what's fact and what's fiction the entire time thinking to yourself what would you do if you were given the chance to relive a day again and change the course of your future? Bravo on this one Megan 5 stars!!!

  • Christine (Shh Moms Reading)
    2019-04-26 01:11

    posted on www.shhmomsreading.comThis was an interesting and different read for me…in a very good way. What if you took a different path in life and how would it affect your existence as you know it?Lila Spencer is attending college with her two best friends. The love of her life, soul mate (and her Penguin!) Jay attends college far away and is visiting her for the weekend. Though they don’t get to spend too much time with each other except for the occasional weekends, Jay is understanding, doesn’t make demands and tells her to go out with her best friends to a club that night in celebration of her birthday rather than spending the night with him. My first thought of this couple while reading this book is asking myself if they can survive three years apart and will they survive with small visits alone? I felt like they could as there is a deep love for each other. However, being in a relationship with someone I love so deeply and only get to see each other in small visits, would I have made the same decision?When the girls go out, they go all out with dancing and drinking and having fun. And what becomes interesting in this scenario and scary as I continue to read is that the girls are obviously drugged and abducted and my heart is pounding as I realize that this could happen in everyday life and I am instantly afraid of what the outcome will be.And what becomes even stranger is that Lila wakes up in the arms of her boyfriend remembering spending the evening with him alone and letting her friends go out without her!WTF just happened here?! And even crazier is that she wakes up wearing the shirt of one of her abductors in her dream.So what’s real? What happened? I DON’T KNOW but I want to find out more!!Lila begins a quest to find out the truth behind the dream because in her mind it really happened. Maybe she was forecasting the future..maybe she was meant to dream this to prevent future abductions from happening. Lila enlists the help of her boyfriend to find the abductors and bring justice to these evil human beings. Lila is determined to do anything to get these men but at what price?Without giving anything away, as I continue through this book, I am sick to my stomach with the events that are happening and scared and almost don’t want to finish because I want to close my eyes and hide. But I finish and WOW! Megan Hand’s debut novel is action packed and suspenseful. It is about a love so strong and powerful that it protects against evil. This is a book about moving forward and realizing what’s important and that just sometimes you have to take justice into your own hands to do what’s right to protect the ones you love.I look forward to reading more from Megan and recommend this to someone looking for a quick action packed and suspenseful read.ARC provided by the author for an honest review.

  • Justin
    2019-05-01 17:50

    I don’t really read many self-published books. But the handful of self-published books I have read have been amazing. Megan is off to a fantastic start with her debut book Bitter Angel. I haven’t had a lot of time to read recently, so even though it took me a lot longer to read this book is was still very enjoyable. I do feel like I would have got a lot more out of it if I had the chance to read it from start to finish quicker though. I will be going back and reading it over again eventually when I have the time to read it in a smaller amount of time.Bitter Angel is really fast paced, which goes back to me wishing I had been able to read it over a shorter period of time. There are a lot of little details that can be missed if you don’t really pay attention. I feel like I was able to understand the story pretty well, even though it was spread out over a longer time span. But I am sure there are some tiny details I might have missed. I really liked how this story was set up though. It had a very unique feeling, and with Megan’s writing you really get engrossed in what you’re reading. As I mentioned, you really do have to pay attention when you’re reading the book. There are moments that can get a little confusing but things always seem to be explained in the end. I was really impressed with how she was able to combine all of the different aspects you see in this book. The concept revolving around Lila’s friends and what Lila goes through. It’s just really interesting and makes for an enjoyable read. I loved the characters. This is another reason I want to read the book again though. I was able to connect with them in the time I read it, but I feel like if I had the chance to read the book a little quicker I might really be able to connect with them more. They are very well written and enjoyable though, I honestly can’t think of anything that I saw wrong when it came to any of the characters. I really think that a lot of people will enjoy this book. If you like romance, mystery and just an exciting story then I would suggest that you check out Bitter Angel. Being a New Adult title, I think it is a great book for people that are looking to try to start reading NA. Perfect book to bridge over with, if you’re not very familiar with what New Adult has to offer. I hope that you all will enjoy this awesome book if you do decide to pick it up.

  • eileen
    2019-05-16 02:10

    Check out more of my reviews at ***Singing and Reading in the Rain***!I did not expect to love Bitter Angel, but, oh, how I loved it.Bitter Angel is one of the first new adult novels that I've read that wasn't purely contemporary. It was science fiction, as well a dash of thriller, and I got swept up in this new, exciting premise. From the synopsis, I understood that Lila would live through two versions of a Friday night, but I hadn't yet grasped the gravity of the situation, which was that Lila, Nilah, and Heather got kidnapped and raped by a gang. It's a tough subject to deal with, and if you're expecting how these three girls deal with the aftermath of it, that's not what this book is about. The reality of the situation immediately had me intrigued, but it didn't focus on the raping rather than preventing it from ever happening. By taking that line of action, the story was immediately transformed, and I can't say that I missed the fact that we didn't focus on the traumatic experience itself, producing a high-stakes plot and intense series of events. And because I stopped worrying about if the plot would drag, because about two chapters in, I was positive that it wouldn't, I started to focus on the main character: Lila. Lila was strong and compassionate—two of my favorite features in my characters. Not only was her unflagging determination to keep her friends safe from harm inspiring, the way she remained calm and composed through the scariest of scary situations touched me, too.However, as much as I adored Lila, I got a little annoyed at her inner dialogue. She would go on profusely long rants about how she had to keep Nilah and Heather safe, how she couldn't bear to let her boyfriend Jay go. As a result, the plot occasionally slowed down and I lost interest for a few pages, until the monologuing stopped and the action began again. Instead of having the action be the prominent portion during these parts, Lila's monologuing skills took over and thus began the rant. Otherwise, Bitter Angel's plot was perfect except for those small blips in the surface.Creative and fantastic, Megan Hand's debut Bitter Angel will blow you away with its promising plot line and fresh premise.

  • Oana D. H.
    2019-05-08 20:11

    This book definitely was something entirely different from what i expected.Different in a good way,which by the way means that i loved the book.Well,with a cover and a description like that it's obvious that it has to be something good,right?It was.And you have to read it. The first chapters were not exactly my favorites,and at some point i thought that it was a little boring,but when the action started-well,when the real thing happened i fell in love with the story.Maybe this sounds a little crazy,but i don't really care.Not now. Lila Spencer lived Friday night twice.Once with her friends,celebrating one of her best friends birthday.A night which started fine,and ended horrible.And the other night she spent in her boyfriends arms,without caring about everything else.Both nights happened,at least that's what Lila thinks.Then why is Friday again? She knows that she has to do something.To stop it before someone gets hurt,but what she never thought was that it wouldn't be easy at all.But she wasn't alone. Once i started i couldn't stop.Well,at least after Lila started to do something about those dreams-i'm not sure if it's correct to say that those were dreams.Or it is?Anyway.Between Lila ,Jay(Lila's boyfriend) and the other guy who helped them i didn't know who was the one who was thinking clearly.Maybe,Jay?Or Lila? Jay was amazing!He tried from the beginning to protect Lila,and he even tried to keep her away from the one person who was in charge with what happened in the the first dream/the bad one.He proved that he loved Lila too much he was determined to keep alive, than to permanently lose her.Perfect boyfriend ,right?He was. This is the first time when i read a book like this one,and it was pretty much what i was searching for.The whole idea was brilliant. About Lila from the beginning i thought she was a little crazy,but i really liked her.Even if she was scared out of her mind ,even if she was afraid of what she could face-she did it and it was awesome!She faced the danger for her friends,and not only for them.Someone had to stop those guys ,and that was Lila. Yikes!Much better than i imagined and i'm glad i got the chance to read the book.

  • Carrie
    2019-04-19 01:13

    When I read the synopsis for Bitter Angel I was instantly intrigued. How would this be played out, how would the author follow these alternate plot lines? So when I was given a chance to review I took it.Lila and her two best friends do everything together. On the night of her friend Neelah’s birthday she is forced to choose: go out and party with her friends or stay in and spend the evening with her long term boyfriend, Jay. The events following these possible paths lead to either the death of her friends or saving her friends but being traumatically drugged, beaten, and almost raped by a gang of young men who prey on young women.When Lila wakes up screaming after seeing herself at her friend’s graveside she realizes that the Friday night in question hasn’t happened. She is given a chance to make sure these events never occur. Her behavior is frightening to Neelah, Heather and Jay and all three want to stop her from going anywhere. Lila decides to use the knowledge she gained from her lucid nightmare to stop the gang from raping any more women.The story follows Lila as she tries to convince one member of the gang to help her stop them, convince the police this is going on even though they have no proof, and convince her boyfriend that she isn’t crazy. Jay wants to protect Lila from harm and uses the drugs developed by Trigger (one of the gang members but an unwilling participant) to knock her out so she stays away from danger. Lila ends up waking up from the drugs and going alone to track down the gang leader.This was an action packed, frightening story. The subject manner is plausible and that made it more terrifying. Gang rapes, date rape drugs, violence against women, it’s in the news daily. My only critique is Lila goes through a LOT in this story. She is beaten, knocked out, drugged, beaten some more, tied up, and eventually shot…a normal person would not be able to do some of the things she has done after that sort of trauma.It was a good read, despite the difficult subject matter and the somewhat unrealistic superhuman abilities of Lila.3.5 out of 5 starsI received a copy of this novel for an honest review

  • Jace
    2019-05-10 23:45

    Wow..This was definately different. I enjoyed this book alot. There's definately alot of emotions to experience. I went through nail biting, eye rolling, near tears, and also a frequent feeling of wanting to bash my head against the wall. It's a bit weird, because walking away I feel like this was a light read, even though it delt with some pretty serious stuff.**Spoiler alerts**I want to make sure that the reader knows what they're getting into with this book, because the fighting for her life reference in the write up is not about a car crash or a mugging. It's about being drugged and raped and beaten. Granted, we experience all of this in her 'dream' for the first while, except that it's not a dream to her. She lives it just like it actually happend. Just to be clear, Lila never does get raped. It's a close call on a few occasions, but that's not something that we have to go through with her as we're reading. She does get drugged, beated and very close to violated, but that's one line that doesn't get crossed.I liked Lila's character for the most part. She was ballsy when push came to shove, and her loyalty to her friends and those she loved makes her into a character that I can respect, despite her frequent trips into stupidville. I felt quite a bit of exasparation with her. Alot of her decisions are not thought through, but she plows through anyway and then wonders why she didn't think stuff through. It was a little annoying, but not out of character of a 19 year old college student who has never been in such a situation, so it's pretty easy to understand her. The general plot of this book is essentially her determination to stop the bad guys. There's action, lulls, and a few love scenes thrown in, but overall it's about her refusal to give up and run away from something horrible that's happening. This is why I liked the book. It's realistic. They don't have access to any genuis hackers to find out info on said bad guys, they don't have weapons or super duper 007 trickery. They're college students relying on their own smarts and small resources to figure out a plan.

  • Sarah
    2019-05-05 19:13

    See more reviews at The Best Books Ever!I thought the premise of this book was really cool. Lila dreams up two very real, but very different versions of her Friday night. In one, she leaves her boyfriend Jay behind to go party with her roommates/best friends; in the other, she lets them go out on their own as she stays in with Jay. But both realities have terrible consequences: in the first, all three girls are drugged, abducted, and brutally assaulted by a group of guys, but Lila is able to intervene to get help. In the second, without Lila there to stop the perpetrators, her best friends are killed. Lila, when she wakes up for real, finds out that neither scenario ever happened, but is convinced that the night will happen without someone stopping it. From there, the book shifts from the creepy but disorienting dual reality scenario to Lila going all vigilante on the guys in order to do whatever it takes to stop any other girls from being hurt again.I had mixed feelings about Lila. I thought it was neat to have a main character who was super devoted to her friends, and who was determined to make sure that the bad guys couldn't hurt anyone else. She was also super annoying at times when it came to her long inner monologues. I admit that I did a lot of skimming of her thoughts just to get back to the action, because a lot of it was just repetitive. The first half of the book was very strong, I thought, as we read about Lila's dream scenarios and follow her as she tries to escape from the guys who have abducted her and her friends. The second half, which was more stake-out and investigating, dragged more, and had the added bonus of Characters Making Stupid, Frustrating Decisions. It's worth a read to see how it all works out, but if you're like me, prepare for some eye rolling at some borderline cliche things.I'd recommend this book for mature teens and up. Aside from cursing and alcohol use, there is a lot of violence (in general and specifically against women) and talk of sexual assault, which could be triggering for readers.

  • *Marsha,Marsha,Marsha* It's always Marsha
    2019-04-26 21:06

    3.5 in the minority starsI'm sorry but I am in the minority, once again. I respect the opinions of others but am finding the 5 stars difficult to understand. Ms. Hand deserves praise for her writing and for her hard work. I believe without a doubt that this book has potential but what killed it for me was the complete lack of realism. I understand that fiction is to be entertaining. But for me, when a story is supposed to be a contemporary novel, then an element of realism simply needs to exist. This is not a romance. It is a novel of suspense with some romance thrown in. Does it have some sex? Yeah, but the suspense still takes the forefront. The premise of this novel is that Lilah has had a dream, a premonition, of a horrible criminal incident and she believes her best friends are now dead. But Lilah doesn't realize it is a dream. She wakes up and because of a tee shirt she is now wearing, she realizes that she has "lived" the night through her dream and now has the chance to "save the day." And for me, here is where the loss of realism comes in.We are talking about a serial kidnapping/drug/rape group. And Lilah takes it upon herself to believe that she can find out what is going to happen and how to bring this entire group down. Her boyfriend Jay becomes involved as does one of the "boys" in her dream. He turns out to be the "drug maker" and does this at a lab on the campus of UT. Right. We are expected to believe that Lilah is able to track down and get this ball rolling. Even though an attempt is made to contact the police, the trio believes that they must stop this group themselves. The best description I can come up with for this trio: Nancy Drew, Screech, and Zach. I wanted to like this book and it seems that it worked for quite a few more as shown through the reviews. I did finish it but skipped and scanned often. I hope Ms. Hand continues writing. I believe she has potential in many ways.

  • Valerie
    2019-04-25 00:09

    !!! I received a copy of this book for my honest review!!!This was a dynamite book and I highly recommend others to read this book. This book starts off with a bang and literally had me turning pages to see what happens next. It has such mystery and suspense that i would stay up all night reading. Plus this book got read in 2 days, which with kids and work isnt easy, so you know its good! This was my first time reading a book that was this graphic and to where the story line revolved around a group of rapist.Lila is the main female character in this book and let me just say the girl rocks. To live two different nights and one of them very disturbing, then when she wakes and realizes she has the day over again goes on a mission to end this group of rapists gives her an A+ in my book any day. She was so brave thinking of just not letting anyone else get hurt by these psychos that she put her life in danger. Her boyfriend Jay is such a sweetheart. They both come from broken homes and he vows to never treat her the way his mother got treated. I must say though and Lila felt this way at periods that a girl loves a sweetheart but every now and then they need their badass sides to come out. He didnt really let his badass side show til the end. Alpha(the lead rapists of the group) is a sick twisted individual. Being the senators son and always being use to getting what he wants I guess got to his head too much. He is a sick bastard and what he does to another character Trigger to help him to make special drugs so these girls dont remember anything the next is just down right cruel. This guy though go what was coming to him at the end. I just wish Lila didnt get hurt right along with him.The ending ends nicely..I want say much more then that cause i dont want to give it away but I was happy with the way it ended.I never read anything from this author and I definetely was not disappointed and will definetly be reading more from her.